So here I am... All alone but yet I still try to see the best in things. I am going home (Christmas baby here I come). I can not tell anyone how excited this makes me, but yet there are still things that make me think otherwise. Oh what a tangled web we weave. So many things but so little time to accomplish them now. I did not expect to feel like this and feel the way that I do about someone. I cant express what leaving is going to do to me or him. ugghhh..... I just can't deal with this now. Maybe I will go to bed and see if anything changes. Two weeks apart sucks. I want so much out of life but I feel like I need to be home for something bigger and better. I guess we will see when I get there
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Not really a post but just a thought..
Hummm... The tangled webs we weave. New roommates are hard to swallow. But even more when one person says one thing to you and another thing to another roommate. I really need to think on this more.
Posted by Lea Anne on Sunday, April 12, 2009 0 comments
Friday, April 3, 2009
Really I dont want to go out tonight.
So here I am sitting at home after a really late night or should I say morning.... And I really dont want to go out lol.... Just thought I would share with everyone.
Posted by Lea Anne on Friday, April 03, 2009 0 comments
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Damit your not 21 anymore.
One thing that you have to learn when you get older is that you are not as young as you used to be. You have to own up and take responsibility for your actions. When you make a dumb ass move you better be ready to pay for it. Thank fully I got lucky. One thing that it has taught me tho is I am not 21 anymore. While i may like to pretend that I am, I must face reality and accept the fact that I am almost 30. Damn it scares me even to type it.
(Even though I am still trying to do this) you must learn from the mistakes and accept them. Don't dwell on what you should have done.
Let me get back to you and let you know how i have coped.....
Posted by Lea Anne on Thursday, January 15, 2009 0 comments
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
People you work with
Wow. I almost told one of my fellow employees to screw himself tonight. I don't get too mad when you are to busy to help with something. I understand that we are all busy but watch your freaking tone. GRRR. Waiting tables sucks. Anyone hiring for a bartender out here. I like it much better when one of your patrons walks up, says hey can I get a (insert drink here) and you hand it to them. Low and behold you get a tip for it. I want to make money. Not depend on someone else to make it for me. Give me a section and let me talk to tables. Shit I will do your work for you just dont f with my money.
Dumb servers suck!!!!
Posted by Lea Anne on Wednesday, October 29, 2008 0 comments
Friday, October 24, 2008
Trivia with the young'ens
So I was invited out to Trivia night by some girls that I work with. They had told me that we would all be the youngest people in there by about 20 years. Well sitting there waiting one of the girls in the group celebrate their 25th birthday, it hit me. Wow almost 27 and these people have graduated college. They are on the road to their dreams. I am lucky I am doing it now but if I knew then what I know now, I would not take those moments for granted. I know I am only two years older but two years is a big difference in your 20's. You see things that you didn't then. Your eyes are more open and so is your mind. You appreciate things differently. Its just weird. While some at the table graduated in history and foreign politics others at the table are graphic designers and webmasters. Such a diverse crowd and so open to what you say. Its different but I was able to sit back and take it all in. Listen to each conversation and think wow these people are really our future. Now living up here I feel better knowing that at least some of our age group is educated. Some of our age group cares about the world and what is going on. (not saying that Texas doesn't, they just don't talk openly about it) I really can't wait to get into the college scene and start listening more.
Posted by Lea Anne on Friday, October 24, 2008 0 comments
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Dave Matthews
ok so here I sit, we got here a bit till 7 and I have to be at work at 11. Do I risk it and just be late or do I leave a place that has free tickets for Dave Matthews? Ummm I am risking being late. It sucks but what can you do. Its a one in a life time thing right. There are lots of characters here. One guy has already started drinking. I mean really! Who wants a yengleing at 7 am? Umm I think I am just getting over the bottle of wine I drank last night but still. I guess I am just that out of touch. Wait didn't I used to start drinking a 3 am the night before? lol
Posted by Lea Anne on Saturday, October 18, 2008 0 comments
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Life in Richmond
Ok I must confess, although I love it here, I am a little homesick. Don't get me wrong. This does not mean I want to go back home. I jus miss being able to go get hole in the wall real Mexican food. I want to go to a bar. Not just a place that sells food that has a good bar. I want some more friends. (I know I will keep meeting people). In a lot of ways this move was for me to get out of my Dallas bubble. Well this has deffinatly hppened and I could not be more happy about it. As all of you know I am just extremely impatient :)
Ohhhhh..... I did find a red hot and blue today! I will drive 50 miles for that freaking potato salad :)
,ost importantly I am ready for school. I want to learn. Hell I need to learn.
All in all Richmond is great. I just kind of miss home
Posted by Lea Anne on Wednesday, October 08, 2008 0 comments
Monday, September 22, 2008
New job and already stuck my foot in my mouth.
Damit I really need to learn how to watch what I say. I need to have that filter. uggh. Maybe tomrrow will be better. Work was good tho. I was a little bored but its just because I have to follow someone else. It will get better.
Posted by Lea Anne on Monday, September 22, 2008 0 comments
Friday, September 19, 2008
Another day....Wait I got a job!
So this morning found me a little hunover since we wnt to shushi o last night. Thanks Jason.... Mother of Pearl Martinis rock tho.
I had my third interview today and got the job. I will be working at the cooper grill. I am so thrilled about it. I will be a back waiter in team service. Tomorrow is yet another trip to the restaruant to sign paperwork. :) yippie for me
Posted by Lea Anne on Friday, September 19, 2008 0 comments
Thursday, September 18, 2008
First trip to the James River alone
Well today was my first trip to the James alone. Wow the sound of the river, nothing is more peaceful. Hear the geese fighting? Look at the tall, full, beautiful trees. Some are already starting to turn colors as the next season is almost upon us. Light green and a slight purple are scattered amongst the tips of the trees. I will finally get to see a season and enjoy it. Not like Texas where its one season for two days and another for 4-5 months. Birds are chirping, critters are crackling the brush and leaves that have fallen to the ground.
Turn on the Ipod and be inspired. Wait.. better yet just listen to yourself. Relish in the moment. Your first trip to the river on your own. Take it all in. Stop floundering. This is your calm. No one can take this peace away from you.
The breeze is cold enough for a sweat shirt but still you can wear shorts. When the breeze hits you it sends chills. It will pick up for a moment and slow down again almost as if the earth was breathing. The huge rocks formed by the river are inviting to lay on. They are flat and call your you to enjoy the sun on them.
This is solitude.... This is peace
Two more people have joined me. Looks to be an older man and his daughter. Ahhh... Breakfast at the James. Quiet conversation between the two of them. Very hushed and murmured. They both look at something very intently in between them. I can not make out what it is. He then lights a cigarette. For someone who has smoked for as long as I have you would be surprised that I really didn't want one. I am really surprised that I didn't go over there to get one from him.
The geese are still bating in the water. Dunking their heads and shaking them off. You can see the water that has shaken off them in the sunlight. Every once in a while you will hear one of the "honks" that sounds almost like a party horn. All of the sudden I hear a plane and the geese start to signal that something is going on. It's not a plane at all but a train on the other side of the river. The wheels screeching on the tracks. No whistle warning. Just the sound of train rushing towards the city. Birds have now emerged from the trees on the other side of the rive because of all of the commotion. They are soaring high and gliding with the wind. The train has now passed and all you hear is nature and the river again.
Good bye my first day at the river. I will be back to you to keep me calm and keep me energised for the day. Now its off to the world I have up here. Finding things to do and trying not to feel alone. Setting off on another day of making this big, huge, world feel like mine.
Posted by Lea Anne on Thursday, September 18, 2008 1 comments
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Wow I really live here.
Ok so I think I am getting over the initial shock of moving somewhere new. I am ready for a job. Not doing anything sucks. I guess I could go get my DL today. We will see. I am ready to be settled. I am sick of the whole limbo stuff. I want to feel like home already. I know you can't rush these types of things or go too fast but it sucks.
For those of you that chose not to work, you are nuts. I sit at home like a lost puppy waiting for my owners to come home from work just so I can talk to someone. Still you try not to bombard them and we are still getting used to a living situation but damn you want some form of human interaction. And remember I have only been doing this for two days.... well three if you include today because it will be the same until I get a Job. Just sucks for someone who is always on the go with either work or social stuff to just sit here. I have a new found respect for people that go thru this and don't chose to.
Living here is good though. I have found some places on my own and beginning to get to know my way around the neighborhood stores. I will probably venture out a little further today and take a highway. Once I learn my N-E-W-S I will be in good shape.
Email me some funny stuff, I need a laugh.
PS: everyone that reads this please pay attention to the Presidential stuff. Don't just look at the candidates "Values". Actually sit down and listen to what they have to say. I don't want to be called a dumb American again from some lady on tv that actually knows what she is talking about.
Posted by Lea Anne on Wednesday, September 17, 2008 0 comments
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Travel day
Its freakin 830 already and we have been on the road for almost three hours..... Are we there yet
Posted by Lea Anne on Saturday, September 13, 2008 0 comments
Monday, September 8, 2008
5 Days and counting.
So I have five more days in the beautiful state of Texas. Did I mention that I cant wait. Getting out of the Drama is so worth it. I will be able to breathe on my own. No suffocation. That's really all I wanted to say right now. I'm just ready. Going on a little vacation tonight. Wake boarding for my last time before I leave. Too bad I don't have the room to take it with me. But I wont need it until next year anyway!
Posted by Lea Anne on Monday, September 08, 2008 0 comments
Monday, August 18, 2008
ALL SMILES
So I just finished reading a blog from a Richmond bartender. HUUUMMM very interesting. Looks like the guys is a sibling of Tucker Max. I really wish that not all Bartenders in that area are douchebags like this guy. Kind of leaves a bad taste in your mouth about moving.
Well I am 26 days away from my move date and I could not be happier. I have told everyone in the family and while they have not always been the best talks at least I can say that I am doing what I want to do.
I am meeting an old friend for lunch on the 30 and I could not be more excited about it.
I know I say this but I will try to start blogging more. Talk to everyone soon.
Posted by Lea Anne on Monday, August 18, 2008 0 comments
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Thinking....
When do people not know that you mean business? You tell them one thing and they think that you are saying something completely different. I don't understand. What makes me happy is knowing that on September 13 I will be in my car on a 22 hour journey to my new life. A new place where I can be me and find out who me is. I have so much potential but I am being grounded here. I know that some things in my life have forced this change. But I embrace it. I cant wait to be there and just be me. I am going to be expected to do things but it will be different. Every day that ticks by is a step closer to where i want to be.
Posted by Lea Anne on Sunday, June 29, 2008 0 comments
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
questions
Why am I too scared to put out there what i mean and what i think? Cant i just write it? Is it so hard to open up? What am i supposed to be or do? Why at 27 am I having such a hard time finding that out? Can I let go of every thing that i think and feel and be happy with me? Just some random thoughts.
Posted by Lea Anne on Wednesday, June 18, 2008 0 comments
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Where has the time gone??
Shit tons has happened. Just got the new Weezer cd and let me say ITUNES SUCKS. I will never order another song from them. On a different Note I have found flight of the chonchords (cause there aint no party like my nanas tea party) and Arrestted Delevopment. Love them both. Cant wait for the AD movie that is being talked aobut. Lets see what else looking for a part time job, taking a break from the family, and just being here. I have some personal things going on but other that just staying busy. About to start another class in about a week. Whoo hoo... I smell another A!! Ill write again soon
Posted by Lea Anne on Wednesday, June 04, 2008 0 comments
Monday, March 31, 2008
What happens when you start to change?
So I know that I am spoiled and I have had almost evertything handed to me in life. Holy cow. It was like a light bulb that went off. I feel like such a dumb ass for not seeing it before. So now i am making changes for the better. I will keep everyone posted.
Richmond was wonderful. I cant wait to move. I wish i could have moved right then but i have some lose ends to tie up here. :(
Posted by Lea Anne on Monday, March 31, 2008 0 comments
Monday, March 3, 2008
Sorry its been so long.
Sorry its been so long. I have had so much going on. Now i am really into this stupid big brother show... i find myself on the websites everyday to figure out what is going on. I know i am lame. What are you going ot do tho.
I went to see G Love and Tristan Prettyman. She is absolutley fantastic. I loved the show.
I have to go do some house work. TTFN :)
Posted by Lea Anne on Monday, March 03, 2008 0 comments
