Nothing to write home about

So here I am... All alone but yet I still try to see the best in things. I am going home (Christmas baby here I come). I can not tell anyone how excited this makes me, but yet there are still things that make me think otherwise. Oh what a tangled web we weave. So many things but so little time to accomplish them now. I did not expect to feel like this and feel the way that I do about someone. I cant express what leaving is going to do to me or him. ugghhh..... I just can't deal with this now. Maybe I will go to bed and see if anything changes. Two weeks apart sucks. I want so much out of life but I feel like I need to be home for something bigger and better. I guess we will see when I get there