Nothing to write home about

So here I am... All alone but yet I still try to see the best in things. I am going home (Christmas baby here I come). I can not tell anyone how excited this makes me, but yet there are still things that make me think otherwise. Oh what a tangled web we weave. So many things but so little time to accomplish them now. I did not expect to feel like this and feel the way that I do about someone. I cant express what leaving is going to do to me or him. ugghhh..... I just can't deal with this now. Maybe I will go to bed and see if anything changes. Two weeks apart sucks. I want so much out of life but I feel like I need to be home for something bigger and better. I guess we will see when I get there

Not really a post but just a thought..

Hummm... The tangled webs we weave. New roommates are hard to swallow. But even more when one person says one thing to you and another thing to another roommate. I really need to think on this more.

Really I dont want to go out tonight.

So here I am sitting at home after a really late night or should I say morning.... And I really dont want to go out lol.... Just thought I would share with everyone.

Damit your not 21 anymore.

One thing that you have to learn when you get older is that you are not as young as you used to be. You have to own up and take responsibility for your actions. When you make a dumb ass move you better be ready to pay for it. Thank fully I got lucky. One thing that it has taught me tho is I am not 21 anymore. While i may like to pretend that I am, I must face reality and accept the fact that I am almost 30. Damn it scares me even to type it.

(Even though I am still trying to do this) you must learn from the mistakes and accept them. Don't dwell on what you should have done.

Let me get back to you and let you know how i have coped.....